12.01.2008

so it has been a pretty sad morning. what a way to start the day. i feel even worse now than i did when i left my family at KLIA. 31 people whom i've spend a week laughing, joking, having fun and eating with have boarded a black [very awesome & stylish] bus to the airport leaving the rest of us behind. maybe i'm a little over emotional. maybe a little too dramatic. say whatever you want but these group of very unique individuals have touched my heart in "a magical one week" as mentioned by carrie.

i'm pretty lucky that carrie and i are just 30 minutes away from each other in pennsylvania. i don't know if i can take parting away from her too. i might have buckets full of tears to shed. but right now melancholia is just too much to handle.

this week has been really awesome. from pre-departure camp to the flights and transits [which includes running like mad!] to this orientation in the 4-H National Conference Center in washington dc, it has really been an eye opener and a growing experience. the events we shared together as a group and individually really tests who we are inside. without a doubt there'll be much to miss. so like what my dear beloved cheryl advised me to, i'll eat for them. they only had a small bar. lol.

now the experience REALLY begins. will we be able to stand on our own? will we be strong enough? will we use our experiences to the fullest? but most of all HOW are we going to handle situations not in our familiar environment with family and friends? the next 6 months are going to be one VERY long duration of time that we'll use to search for answers and through it gain values that will never come along with any other programs.

here and now in the states, it's going to be a very big challenge to all of us. SO we're gonna do our best and NEVER ever forget to have fun!

p/s : i need to rub my toes for a lil. thats what happen when you wear flip flops in 7 degree celsius to bid your farewells. i'm gonna remember how everyone looked when they boarded the bus. remember their last words to me [i don't mean that they're dying]. remember what a great bunch they really are and will be when i see them again. =)